Sunday, 7 December 2008

Most of the shadows of this life are caused by our standing in our own sunshine.

Most of the shadows of this life are caused by our standing in our own sunshine. - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Just so you all know, i did blog yesterday but it wasn't until about 2-3am so if you haven't read it yet just scroll down to the bottom and click older posts, there's some beautiful pictures of Justin on there. :)

Lou's just left, we had a merry time listening to now 71 and planning Christmas you tube joy. Then we decided it would be a good idea to search random bands and comedians on It wasn't, I'm now suicidal. (not in a serious way) but I'm DESPERATE for a Platinum pit rock star ticket to go and see Nickelback. They're my favorite band. Well, i have three and i went to see two of them this year (Matchbox twenty and Girls aloud) I missed the Nickelback gig because i had literally JUST had Justin, so I'm DESPERATE to go next year and it would be amazing to get the platinum ticket.

Look at that, i mean SERIOUSLY. Dear god i would die. Problem being the tickets are £273.50... Lol. Its a shame i have no rich friends. I don't think i could ever possibly raise the £600 I'd need to go. (because i wouldn't want to go alone) and NO ONE in the world would sell tickets like this on eBay! Damn, what a shame, its a serious shame, I'm genuinely sad. I'm contemplating selling everything i own. Sadly i own nothing expensive. :(:(:( Wow, i would love that. :( Hmmm. oh well, nothing i can do about it. Even if my money came in i couldn't afford it, I've got Justin to think of. That isn't me being regretful by the way, I'd rather spend the rest of my life with my baby boy doing everything i possibly can for him than go to some concert but it would just be nice. I deserve a treat. I'll buy myself a cream cake, a little bit cheaper lol. Then i can kick myself afterwards because I'm still trying to loose my post pregnancy podge. *sighs* Post secrets today. They're quite good this week.

As always here are my favorite from the week. I'll probably maybe post mine soon. Still waiting for stamp money... and courage. I got some postcards from the cinema, maybe I'll use them? But i also have a book of plain post cards, so maybe I'll use them? I don't know, I'll probably end up using all of them. there's so many things I'd like to say. I wonder if anyone would notice that they were mine? Then again i don't know that many people that go on so i guess its not very likely. I love it. Its like making a new friend every time you can relate to a postcard, which is pretty damn often.

Think I'm going to go and write my Christmas cards now if i can find them. I brought quite small ones though before i decided to write long messages so I'm not entirely sure how this is going to work.

I showed Louisa my beautiful book today but I'm still not sure what to put in it. I'd like to use it as some kind of a scrapbook/diary type thing. But I'm still not really sure. I have this though which is kind of my diary... So really I'd just be copying it out. I might anyway for the prettyness? I don't know. Its such a beautiful book i need to think long and hard what to put in it because I'd hate to ruin it. hang on I'll get a link up. and because I'm so stupidly kind, here's a picture also on the of chance you can't be bothered to click the link. :) Its a bit of a big picture actually. Oh well it looks pretty. :) Isn't it beautiful. I love all the eastern stuff from WHSmiths its god damn beautiful. I've also just found what i want to buy for Louisa for Christmas. Well I've found two things and I'm not sure which would be best. Lol. I would post it to show everyone the niceness but i can't because Lou reads my blog lots lots. :) In fact she checked it at mine not long ago. I'm all home alone and sad and lonely at the moment lol. Well, I'm not sad and lonely but i am home alone lol. Awh there's a cute little pink mums diary, i want it. Haha i don't want much do i? lol. I literally just got 4 messages in one go! Christ i wonder who loves me. Ami wants to know why i text her telling her to help me raise £600 lmao. I can imagine it must be very alarming to receive a message like that. Knowing my life she probably thought i was trying to bail someone out. There is NO ONE online, well people are online but no one is talking i feel so lonely lol. I think I'm going to go for a fag and then do my Christmas cards so I'll be back later... if there's anything interesting to write about later. Ly all.

Writing Christmas cards is exausting. I've only written six so far and i realy can not be bothered to do anymore. I will. But not right now i don't think. I've done Lou, Ami, Zoie, Mike, Kurt & Ian. So left to do i have Justin (Yes i am writing him a card even if he can't read it.) My mom, My dad & Eileen, Bella, David, Maegan, James, Amber, Sydney, Robyn, Carly, Keira, Kirsty & Sarzi and obviously cousins and such... I think there's probably more but i can't think off the top of my head right now. I'm TIIIRRREEEEDD. I may have to go back to bed. lol!

I actually did go back to bed. I didn't only just get up though. I got up about 8 but then i watched a film... Just cause i think it was called. Very upsetting but good. :) Bored now. I've decided i'm going to give myself an entire new wardrobe and makeup makeover for the new year. :) and on the offchance my money comes through on tuesday i'm looking through ebay stuff now to help build up my collection. to all my girls when i get a place i'm having a wardrobe clear out type thing (when i've got my stuff from James) and i shall need your help. :) lol.

I ended up watching £87.82 worth of stuff on ebay. Thats after more than halfing it. I wont buy it all, unless my money comes through, i can't afford it. But it kept me busy/sane for an hour or two. I probably wont buy any of it actually. Which is a shame. Because i really like it. I've signed up for weekly balance texts on tuesdays so now i don't have to check the bank again. :) lol.

1 comment:

  1. I really do make your life a trauma.