Only the actions of the just smell sweet and blossom in the dust.

Only the actions of the just smell sweet and blossom in the dust. - James Shirley.

07:37am.
Earlier than usual lol but thats okay. I finished all my tidying much earlier than i expected. Justin is still having his morning nap. I'm not sure where my polka dot tankini is so i'm being forced to wear my swimming costume which in my opinion is verging on pornagraphic and not suitable at all but then again, next to the stuff lou wears i'll still look posetively nun like... haha. Get to see Mike tomorrow, finally, lol. Well tomorrow evening. I'm well busy this next couple of days now. Swimming soon, then the focus group and then well, i think i have the afternoon to myself then but then tomorrow i've got to take Justin down to my dads for 10am so his dad can pick him up and then i've got to rush into town to see what i can do mobile internet wise and then i've got to go down to Ami's and have fun fun drink times and then i'm seeing Mike :) lol. Dunno what we're doing though lol apparently he has "ideas" but won't tell me. :( meanie lol. I'm dreading what my phone bill is going to be this month but it's not ome through yet i've been checking every day! i'm actually dreading it lol. I'm going to try and check the bank in a second and see how poor i am though i am pretty sure that i am posetively skint as a bint. I am going to do a myspace quiz to kill time this morning, i'll post it on here too probably. x

1.

What is your Boyfriend/girlfriends name?
Mike :)

2.

What color underwear/boxers wearing now?
Black & pink


3.

What are you listening to right now
Washing machine.



4.

Whats your favorite number?
7.



5.

What was the last thing you ate?
Jam on toast.


6.

If you were a crayon what color would you be?
Turquoise.



7.

How is the weather right now?
Not sure, cold though.



8.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Lou i think? Actually it was Ami.


9.

The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
It depends what is most noticeable about that spec ific person, usually clothes actually.



11.

Do you drink?
Yup.



12.

Do you smoke?
Yup.



13.

Ever get so drunk you don't remember what you did?
God yes! So many times.




15.

Eye Color?
Brown.



16.

Do you wear contacts?
Nah.
Glasses :D


17.

Favorite Holiday?
I don't bloody know.



18.

Favorite Month?
September.


19.

Have you ever cried for no reason?
Yeah sure.


20.

What was the last movie you watched?
Ermm, me and Ami watched some of the rocky horror picture show the other day.


21.

Favorite Day of the Year?
9th September.


22.

Are you too shy to ask someone out?
No, but i don't plan on asking anyone out as i'm taken lol.


23.

If you could say something to someone right now what would you say?
I'm not saying.


24.

Hugs or Kisses?
Both please?


25.

Chocolate or Vanilla?
Vanilla.



26.

Do you want your friends to respond to this?
If they so desire.



27.

Who is most likely to respond?
Noone lolz!


28.

Who is least likely to respond?
EVERYONE.


29.

What books are you reading?
On the road.


31: Favorite movie?
Of all time, i really don't know.

I have a list, i'm going to have to tell you now.

(in no order)
A walk to remember.

Closer.

Standing still.

Bridge to terabithia.

Girl, interupted.

Gia.

Foxfire.

The star wars films
&
The saw films


32.

Favorite football Team?
Birmingham city.


33.

What were you doing before this?
Eating Jam on toast & blogging.



34.

Any pets?
Does Lou count?

36.

Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
SALTY SALTY SALTY.



37.

Dogs or cats?
Cats if i have to chose, but neither really.



38.

Favorite flower?
Tulip?


39.

Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't suposed to be doing?
Corse.


41.

Have you ever loved someone?
Yes.


42.

Who would you like to see right now?
Anyone really.


43.

Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?
I imagine as i'm english you mean like nursery so erm, no.



44.

Have you ever fired a gun?
Nope.


45.

Do you like to travel by plane?
Never have.



46.

Right-handed or Left-handed?
Left


47.

If you could have one drink right now what would it be?
A nice glass of cold whole milk.



48.

How many pillows do you sleep with?
One.



49.

Are you missing someone?
I am.
:)


50.

Do you have a Tattoo?
I do.



51.

Are there people on your myspace page that you would date or go on a date with?
Well, Mikes on my myspace... lol.

There we go lol. I don't think there was really much point in that but there we go anyway lol. Anyways i'm going to be off to make some bottles up (i was waiting for the kettle to cool down) and also have a cigarette and perhaps something more to eat because all i've had is a slice of jam on toast and i'm starving lol. Swimming soon, woo. Saying that, it isn't even eight yet. I don't meet Lou until half eleven. :(

10:02am.
Not going swimming anymore, Lou's hernia is playing up. :( Shame shame shame. I'm contemplating going to town today to get my internet sorted so i don't have to go in my dress tomorrow lolz. Not sure though 'cuz i don't know if i'd get back in time for the focus group, i don't HAVE to go mind, i just want to. Back soon, changing and feeding Justin. :) x

10:33am.
I decided against going to town today because i figure as i'm going out tomorrow anyway i will just get a daysaver whereas if i were to go to town today i would have to spend extra money on busfare and after checking the bank this morning i am fully aware i have NO spare money to spend. lol. I've paid my gas water and electric mind so it isn't that bad. Need to pay them all again tuesday lol but thats when my money goes in so that isn't bad. ARGH i have pins and needles in my foot, woah, agony agony agony agony! damn it this hurts. damn it lol. I wonder if i've had any post today? I shall check, i doubt it but hope so, i like getting post, how sad, lolz! Nope no post, you know, i might just buy the internet thingy online, i may aswell. Shall i? I'll have a look most places do better offers online anyway right? and the signal on this isn't ACTUALLY that bad provided i keep it where it is lol. Lets see what they have to offer. :) It needs to be SUPER DOOPER UBER CHEAP but still good lol. Justins having a strop/strain i can't tell the difference because he's supposed to be having a nap but has just had a bottle so it could be either and i m not currently in the same room as him (because he's in bed) well basket, but whatever. lol. I am actually STARVING, no word of a lie i am STARVING. I don't know what i want to eat though, i have stupid amounts of food mind so i'm spoilt for choice really, lol. I don't want anything to big because i've had breakfast and i'll have some kind of lunch later when Justin has his lol. There is a £10 a mon th internet thing but it's only 1gb, hmmm. i'm unsure, but i figure the internet is the internet right? For an extra £5 a month i can get 3gb? I think 1 is just fine though? Maybe? I don't know, It will do, Justin is doing the silly thing again where instead of sleeping because he is tired he cries because he is child, strange child strange child lol. I'm off to settle him and then eat. lol. Awhh he's gone to sleep now, damnit all these internet thingys are 24 month contracts and i don't want it for that long... :( lol. I can get 5gb a month on a 18 month contract or i can get 3gb a month on a twelve month contract both for £15 a month or i can get 1gb for 18 months for £10 a month. I THINK i'm going to go for 3gb on a twelve month contract. :) once its doneee it can't be undone damnit, actually thats a lie, becuse i'm buying it online i have 14 days to change my mind, lol. I can't imagine i will though but in a moment (not on here on paper) i am going to sort out all my money and that, like whats coming in and whats going out so i actually know what i can and can't spend, and then i will decide what internet to get if any. :) lol. Okay so i'm off for abit ly all. x

11:14am.
Well, that didn't take as long as i thought it would, in theory on paper i can afford to get the internet, but everyone knows what my spending habbits are like, so from now on i am going to use my blog to help me, at the end of each days blog i am going to put down how much money i have spent and what on, including little things like busfares and such also including any bills and such, hopefully that will help me, NOT spend too much and if i end up getting abit fucked, well then i end up getting abit fucked and i will hopfully learn from it, i need to kind of realise the difference between things i want and things i need really don't i? lol. Okay so starting today i will be doing that! woo go me, i'm being all big and clever, well, not really but abit lol. I'm going to get the 3gb £15 a month 12 month contract. :) yays for me. lol. Here i go, i'm about to click buy! lol. Earliest delivery date is next tuesday so i won't be blogging inbetween when i give this back to Cath and when i get mine but i will write down how much i spend and put it at the top of my first blog after the short break? Done de done de done de. And i had some cheese on crackers. I'm STILL hungry though, god knows whats wrong with me today, i'm STARVING lol.

6:36pm.
Justin had his bath and went to bed a little earlier than usual because i had to get him up for the focus group, but it was canceled but then he wouldn't go back to sleep so obviously, he was more tired than usual bless him. I have (well had, i'm just about to finish) hotdogs and it makes me think of back in the day when we used to be "trusted" to be home alone and we would drink her dads stella and put tins of hot dogs in the microwave to eat (we had no idea you couldn't put metal in and nothing bad ever happened) Then again it also makes me think of that sunday evening we were allowed to go up green lane... Damn it, but i'm too merry to get depressed so i refuse to, i think i'm going to go and make myself a nice glass of orane juice now :) hang on. :) I have returned with my wonderful orange juice. :) lol. Lol i had my second to last phone session with D.A.R.T today (domestic abuse response team) well, it's supposed to be my second to last, my next one is in a month and hopefully that will be my last one, provided James dosn't decide to start being a twat again, i quite like the whole being ignored thing, hope it lasts. :) lol. I've got a really bad headche again so i think i'm actually going to go to bed lol. :) Night all love you all. x