Our waking hours form the text of our lives, our dreams, the commentary.
Our waking hours form the text of our lives, our dreams, the commentary. - Anon.
09:32am.
So i didn't actually come back yesterday, sorry, i was totally shattered. I'm really starting to look forward to weaning Justin i can't wait haha. Also though i'm getting a bit concerened about how much he sleeps, he goes to bed at like 7pm and usually wakes up at half 6 which is fine but sometimes (like today) not until like 8am and he still sleeps during the day, i mean, i KNOW babys need sleep, but that much? I swear he didn't sleep that much when he was newborn and that was all he did then, eat and sleep, and eat and sleep... lol. Bless him he's in a little pair of jeans and a hoodie today. :) Cuteness. So i got sent a forward text message last night you know one of those "ask me anything" ones, i actually thought all the questions i was getting (when i sent it off myself) were quite interesting, i like doing the whole questions and answers thing, you get to know a person alot better and easier and lalala. You know? Apparently the myspace quiz i'm doing at the moment is "serious questions" i'll post it on here once i'm done. x
Would you shave your head if a family member asked you to because they had cancer?
Yes i would, thats not such a great gesture considering i don't have much hair and considering i don't really mind about it. Sadly though i think i would be pulling off the Britney spears with no hair looks more so than the Natalie portman look lol.
What would you do if the doctor told you that you were pregnant?
Lmao at Louisa's answer. It isn't posible for me to be pregnant but if it were and i went to the doctors all merry like "whats up doc" and such and he said "you're pregnant" i think i'd genuinely be happy, despite the fact i don't REALLY want any more kids until Justin is abit older.
Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
You know, i've been fucked over that much i can't even work out who that person is never mind if they've appolagised not though, going on the averages they probably haven't.
Are you good at hiding your feelings?
No, i don't even bother trying now its like "hey you okay" "No i'm depressed and want to kill myself" "oh" lmao.
Are you wasting your time on someone?
Nahh.
Explain the last time you threw up:
The last time i threw up was at Carly's, i was very very very drunk & sat in her toilet while everyone else had sex, bar Mike who was passed out. It was bright green and Carly decided i must have been eating peas, but i don't like peas. Why would you even ask that? That's vile.
Last thing that made you cry:
I don't remember, i haven't genuinely cried for a while i don't think.
Do you have a bad temper?
Well, i do but it isn't often i lose my temper. I think Ami may have seen me lose it, if not the only people you could ask would be James (ew) & my mom lol.
Do you think you'll be married in ten years?
Oh dear god if i were i would simply die, please no.
How many funerals have you been to in your lifetime?
Zero.
How often do you think about suicide?
In a serious genuine i'm actually going to kill myself way? More often than i'd like but not often enough for it to be a major problem. In a "lol at my life i'm going to suicide way" Atleast ten times a day.
What is your deepest fear?
I shan't say, that is a little to personal for my liking.
Do you REALLY love all your family?
Yes, i do.
What do you want to believe in?
I already beleive in everything i want to beleive in, albeit that isn't much, but still.
Do you have a secret crush on someone?
lol well if i did and i told you then it wouldn't be a secret would it? But no i don't anyway.
Are you proud of who you are?
Yes.
Do you feel alone even in crowded rooms?
Ahh, here's where my issues arise.
Sometimes i feel stupidly claustrophobic and want to die.
Sometimes i feel like the room is totally empty and want to die.
Sometimes i get drunk and dance.
What is the worst thing a person could do to you and still be forgiven?
Oh for fucks sake. Well, i forgive everyone don't i because thats just fucking me and i just let everyone get away with everything, or atleast i did so i don't know if i could come out with the worst thing anyone could ever do and still be forgiven and even if i wanted to it would take a decade for me to type out so i'm going to just go ahead and say up until recently... James.
anyone that knows me knows exactly what i mean, anyone that reads my blog knows partially what i mean. lol.
You're dying in ten seconds, what are your last words to your best friend?
"Look what you've gone and done now"
lmfao.