It is not because things are difficult that we do not dare, it is because we do not dare that they are difficult.

It is not because things are difficult that we do not dare, it is because we do not dare that they are difficult. - Seneca.

07:18am.
My original plam for this morning was to wake up, feed justin, make up some bottles and go back to bed but now i have toast and i want a cigarette and a shower so i don't see myself going back to bed, infact i'm not even that tired anymore, christ lol. It's so cold though lol it only snowed a little bit last night mind its supposed to all be coming down tomorrow and friday isn't it. How fun lol.Still don't know what is going on this weekend with Justin, if i'm not contacted soon i think i'm just going to well, there's nothing i can do is their, i'll try ringing James again later because as far as i know he still hasn't paid his phone so obviously it would be hard for him to get in touch with me but after that then i'm not gonig to get in touch and if that means James dosn't see his son this weekend either then well, his loss, my gain. My lips are so dry it's vile lol always happens in the winter and i have a terrible terrible ear ache. :( Going to see Lou later i do believe, i think i've got to ring her at ten then obviously i will feed Justin at half ten and probably get to hers for around 12ish? god knows lol. Eoither way we're going to have a bit of a talk and such today. and then she's buggering of to be youthy and i think i'm meeting Ami and i may possibly be meeting Mike inbetween. Lolz. Funtimes, right i think i'm going to go and make and drink and then have a cigarette and then a shower and then get dressed maybe? Noone seems to be up (within my household) even though my brother came down earlier and made some toast, i think he has gone back to bed, it sounds silent upstairs except Justin who just started moaning as i typed that, lol. Bless him, right i'm off then, peace and love. x